Salam u ollss.....
I'm sad...
14 February
My grandfather passed away. From my father's side. Luckily the boss allowed me to take my leave. I was worried about my father because of his heart conditions.
Surprisingly, I was able to go back home and see grandfather for one last time. There was one time, from far I look at my father. His eyes were red while looking at his father lying waiting to be buried. He tried to hold his tears by playing around his watch but then I saw him wipe his eyes. He cried. I cried from far. I don't want to loose him and I knew that was what he felt that day. Times by multiple other. I will never forget that scene... ever...
Well, after that everything went on smoothly. His ex-students help with the burial process. They don't want to take any money. It made me think.
Sometimes, we never realised the full extent of impact we have with our students... I'm grateful to have the opportunity to witness it on behalf of my grandfather.
I miss you atuk.
Every raya, I will search for you first when we came back home but this raya...
There's rain on my cheek...
24 February (Friday)
It was raining that time.
Me and my housemate went to buy some cloth for our classroom when I saw my ex-students. They are working in one of the shop there. They are still waiting for their SPM results.
They seem delighted to see us. Me too. I was a class teacher for one of them. Tracy. She seems too pale. I remembered when she pass out at school so I knew she was sick. And that time, she seems too pale and skinny than last year. She smiled at us and she hugged me. Saying she missed me. I miss her too. But I sensed that she seems weak because she could not really grab me. As if withholding some pain. She asked me if I'm well and I said I am. Then we part ways.
After buying some cloth, we saw them again and she hugged me again. I don't really mind it. Maybe because she missed me. Then we said our goodbyes. But, I felt uneasy...
27 February (Monday)
I got a message from the other warden saying that one of the ex-students passed away and it was Tracy. I can't believe my eyes. I thought that they were pulling my legs but then again, we never joke about something like this.
I cried because I can't believe it.
That day, it was raining too...
