02 Mac 2017


Salam u ollss.....

I'm sad...

14 February
My grandfather passed away. From my father's side. Luckily the boss allowed me to take my leave. I was worried about my father because of his heart conditions.

Surprisingly, I was able to go back home and see grandfather for one last time. There was one time, from far I look at my father. His eyes were red while looking at his father lying waiting to be buried. He tried to hold his tears by playing around his watch but then I saw him wipe his eyes. He cried. I cried from far.  I don't want to loose him and I knew that was what he felt that day. Times by multiple other. I will never forget that scene... ever...

Well, after that everything went on smoothly. His ex-students help with the burial process. They don't want to take any money. It made me think.
Sometimes, we never realised the full extent of impact we have with our students... I'm grateful to have the opportunity to witness it on behalf of my grandfather.

I miss you atuk.

Every raya, I will search for you first when we came back home but this raya...

There's rain on my cheek...

24 February (Friday)

It was raining that time.
Me and my housemate went to buy some cloth for our classroom when I saw my ex-students. They are working in one of the shop there. They are still waiting for their SPM results.

They seem delighted to see us. Me too. I was a class teacher for one of them. Tracy. She seems too pale. I remembered when she pass out at school so I knew she was sick. And that time, she seems too pale and skinny than last year. She smiled at us and she hugged me. Saying she missed me. I miss her too. But I sensed that she seems weak because she could not really grab me. As if withholding some pain. She asked me if I'm well and I said I am. Then we part ways.

After buying some cloth, we saw them again and she hugged me again. I don't really mind it. Maybe because she missed me. Then we said our goodbyes. But, I felt uneasy...

27 February (Monday)

I got a message from the other warden saying that one of the ex-students passed away and it was Tracy. I can't believe my eyes. I thought that they were pulling my legs but then again, we never joke about something like this.

I cried because I can't believe it.

That day, it was raining too...

16 September 2016

Teacher and limitation

Salam u olsss~~~~

Well today I want to talk about limitation.

Merriam-webster website quote that limitation is  : 

"something (such as a lack of ability or strength) that controls what a person is able to do"

I know teachers have their own limit on certain things. Everyone has one. I realize that I can only help the students when they are still in school. When they finished, I can only give them advice. 

I was going out with my ex-students which are on their holiday (they are in University now. I'm really OLD!!!! But... I'm not that old. T.T) when I had the opportunity to ask one of them about something that had been bugging me. He was suppose to enroll in a University but he didn't go. I found out from the FB that he need to take care of his siblings. 

I ask whether he want to further his study and he said that of course. He really want it badly but his hands were tied. He need to take care of his young sisters. I ask him why because he already went through the STPM and had good results. He said that his mother had bleeding in her brain because of the high blood pressure and had just undergone the operation. She was not able to move freely and even his father plead for him to not go. He felt restless and I am speechless. 

I know his background. He's not from a rich family. His father is the only breadwinner. He struggle to study because he knows that knowledge can change their future. T.T

I never been in his situation but I know that there will always be blessing in disguise. 

The Prophet Muhammad SalAllahu alayhi wasallam said: “The greatest reward comes with the greatest trial. When Allah loves a people He tests them. Whoever accepts that wins His pleasure but whoever is discontent with that earns His wrath.”Narrated by al-Tirmidhi (2396) and Ibn Maajah (4031); classed as hasan by al-Albaani in Saheeh al-Tirmidhi.

So, I advice him to think on the bright side. He can still further his study but not at the same time as his friend. He got the offer from Peninsular but maybe after this, he will get the nearest IPTA. Close to home. Who knows. Only ALLAH.

After that, his face seems to clear a bit.

He is a good person. 

I'm not able to help him.

I can only pray.


P/s: Maybe I'm too sensitive but this kind of hurdle makes me heartbroken.

04 Disember 2015

A...... Wolf!

Salam u olls.......

Today I had my ups and down moment.

The down part was that I don't get my transfer to N9. I will still be teaching in Bintulu for next year. Maybe its still not my time just yet. Maybe God have something better for me.

Insyaa Allah.

I must admit that I'm a bit sad, but I also knew that there were others who need it most. So, I'm wishing all my teaching buddies the best. I hope they will get their transfer too.

Well, my up part was today was the first day of Big Bad Wolf Book Festival in MIECC , Mines. I bought a lot of books to cool down my moody self and at the same time to satisfy my nerdy side (or was it bookworm side.... haha) with lots of books. I mean... a LOT.

I went there with both my little brothers and my cousin. Even during workday, there were lots of people. I can't imagine what it would might be on weekend. Luckily, I went on the first day. The event will continue until 14 December so those who are nearby, hurry.... hurry!

P/s: I don't get anything for advertising this. I just want everyone who enjoy reading to come and spent less money for things they love. XD

21 Ogos 2015

Really teacherrrr!

Salam u ollsssss. Hehe
Proud to post yet another post for 2 consecutive day... Hahaha....

Technology.... Technology....

Today I work as usual. Teaching my students as usual. Then in the evening I teached extra class for form 5. Only 8 people came but I don't really mind. At least I knew who was serious.

What I wanted to tell you guys was after my student came back from the toilet. She said that she saw her classmate (did not come for xtra class) asking her who came for my class. So she told him and then she went to the toilet. When she came back she seemed puzzled bcoz that boy is not in my class. She said she saw him walk up the stairs to my class...

Really teacherrr... I saw him walk up the stairs.

She got goosebumps thinking it was not her classmate and I teased her after the class ended.

I said to send my regards to him if she see him later and she freak out. Hahaha...

P/s: I think he really did came but did not intended to come for my class. Nevermind...